Thursday, September 27, 2007

how can I be so different

I'm struggling right now with my strong desire to adopt and our inability to be able to afford it right now. But what's the hardest to deal with is my parents. They actually told me that if i adopted I would be taking "things" away from chase and kylie... I sooooo don't see it that way at all. I see it as giving chase and kylie a sibling, someone to share life with, to learn with and to love. Which is so much more important than things. My parents looked at me like I had 10 heads and didn't have a single thing positive or nice to say. It shocks me that I was raised by these people. My whole life I have wanted to adopt, internationally and most likely a special needs baby. But I don't know why I have always felt so strongly about it, especially seeing my parents definitely didn't instill this value in me. But I have always been the person who cares way too much about everyone else and who would cry when ever i heard of something bad happening to someone else...even if i didn't know them. I am a strong believer that it takes a Village to raise a child, and that children are our future and if we don't care about them then we don't care about our future and that every body is important and deserves someone to love them. I know that my children have this value, they know that they can NOT tease or make fun of someone because if mom finds out then they are in HUGE trouble and that they know that they wouldn't want to be teased. We were looking through pictures of adoptable children on the Internet and chase was sitting next to me and he saw a picture of a little boy who had dwarfism and chase said " oh look at him he's so cute , he really needs a family so that he can grow up and be someone and i bet a family could learn a lot from him" I was so proud that he thought that way, that not only would the little boy be lucky to have a family but the family would be lucky to have him. My kids amaze me every day... they have more humanity in their little finger than some adults have in their entire bodies.

1 comment:

liesel said...

Your son is very smart. I agree with you Stephanie. Sounds to me like God has placed a calling on your life. People may not understand, but if you are obedient, He will be there to guide you and lead you every step of the way. I really hope it works out for you!